I thought this should get its own post. I recently shared, as a sidenote, that I am dating a woman. And just a heads up, it's not the first time over the past fourteen years.
Brenna writes in the comment section of Hong Kong Hospitality
I wrote this in response (cleaned up the content structure a bit) …
This is one of those times that being an unabashed extrovert makes for awkward situations.
Yes, I don't think I talk about it *all* the time but when I have I
did say I am called to a lifetime of celibacy. I firmly believed that
up until last year. I went back to counseling for a season last year
and one of the things I learned is that I am much more of a control
freak than I imagined.My counselor didn't believe for a second I was called to celibacy
::: laugh ::: and he exhorted me to walk by faith and not carry
everything the Lord tells me to the nth degree. I firmly disagreed with
him of course and have waffled back and forth about it. Not to long ago
I did reaffirm that I felt led to that calling.Even so, this amazing desire to be married, a husband and possibly a
Dad just keeps building and growing. In spite of my insistence
otherwise, I feel compelled by the Spirit (hopefully) to keep my eyes
open for a wife. I have to take that in faith and follow the Lord in
it. When I met this lady, I felt an amazing pull toward her.An amazing joy.
The relationship is new, I have no idea where it is going but what I
do know is I like the journey and feel at peace. I don't think this
disqualifies anything that I have learned about being single and
celibate. I just have to sit back and keep learning.That is probably clear as mud. I don't have it all figured out but
as the wise counsel said, I am living by faith that the Lord is
sovereign and He directs the steps of His people …Including my stubborn control freak self.
If the relationship does not result in marriage, then God again gets the glory by opening each of your hearts to another soul of His making, even of it’s for – a season.
